Every now and then, you give something your all, put up the big fight and go after what you want with reckless abandon but it doesn’t work out….What do you do? Quit? Become bitter? Wear the rejection on your shoulders like an ugly coat? No. You live, your learn, you take a look at where you could’ve done better and keep going looking for the chance to give it your all once again.

I’ve learned a big lesson this past year, I went after something I wanted like nothing else mattered in the world. I had ups and downs, good days and bad days and every now and then I had great days. I gained and lost inspiration while on this journey but at the end of it all, it was like pulling teeth to truly make it work. I have this philosophy that if something I’m doing is like “pulling teeth” to get it to work meaning it’s getting “very difficult, a lot of pulling and tugging and it’s starting to hurt” then I have to step back and analyze why it isn’t working. In my analysis sometimes I have to come to a hard realization that no matter how hard I try it’s not going to work and I have to walk away.

But in the past I used to hold on to these “disappointments” and “rejections” like an unhealthy badge of honor that I thought was making me better but instead it was just making me bitter. It’s hard sometimes to let go of things that you really wanted but didn’t get and to stop blaming yourself and just realize that it wasn’t meant for you to have. I had to grow and have faith and tell myself that “God isn’t leaving me out he’s just getting me ready”. I really believe this and it’s helped me a lot to accept and move on from things that didn’t work out for me. I hope you’re all having a great weekend and if you happen to be going through some things I hope this post helped you. Xo

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